Having a bad day after a really good one SUCKS BAD. I hate my brain. Like actually. It fucking sucks. I can't go ONE DAY without getting angry and scared to hurt my boyfriend. Why does my brain still have some sort of obsession over him??? This isn't normal. I don't want it to be. But my brain insists that I'm this monster who can never be healed despite ALL my progress. I genuinely don't know what to do at this point in time. My anger has been so bad. It's hurting people. It hurts ME. Whatever. I'll see you all later. Sorry. BYE.....